Besos♥

  Today I finally cleaned my room. I finally found the time only because I called out of work because we had a plumbing problem and there was no way I was going to work without taking a shower or not feeling clean enough to go to a work which requires a lot of action which equals huge amounts of sweating! NO WAY!!! Any who I have been planning to clean my room for months now because the state that it was previously in was so not welcoming. Lets just say it barely had any walking room. The room was a hot mess. So today I cleaned, dusted and rearranged my room. Now it feels like a brand new room, it’s more spacious and my TV is finally at a good angle that I love. I’m so happy that I got the time to do that because God knows I would have kept putting off cleaning my room for a couple months then September would have rolled around and my room would have still been dirty. I am so happy I finally got to clean out the junk in my room.

I always saw that person as a sister someone even though I wasn’t related to I could have always counted on now I see that it was all a lie. Guess I’m destined to be friendless after all!!! Everyone is showing their true colors.

I wish there was someone I knew who could help me do all the things i want to do. I would love a change of scenery. I love going to school and working but I just wish I had something new to do everyday. I really wanted this summer vacation to be different but I have already gotten into a regular pattern which I bored with already. I basically wake up go to work come home sleep go to church go back to work. This is my week. I want to do something different. I just would love to take six months away from my current life to find myself and true calling. I want to do some traveling around the country (USA) and also the world. I want to learn to play two instruments and write some music. I want to experience life in a good way not experience life through rebelling. I want to take risks but good risks. Make good and bad decisions. I want to be carefree and meet new people and make new friends. I want to break out of my shyness and be everything I know I can be. I want to just fall in love with the world and be inspired by it through every aspect in my life. I also would love to take this time to get to know God better form a better relationship with him. I always worry about not wanting to leave people behind but i know if they are given this opportunity I want they will take it without even looking back. I just want a change of scenery so bad!!!

I’m not your average 20 year old lol

So much beauty in the world:)

Be Happy<3

No matter how crazy their actions might be I don’t think giving up on someone is the best thing. God would never give up on us no matter what we do! I believe in however advising and sometimes stepping back and allowing that person to have some space and gaining perspective and coming to terms with the mistakes they are making. I am the type of person who will be there for someone through thick and thin. No matter if we don’t talk or you treat me horribly a part of me will always have a place in my heart to forgive someone once they have learned to right their wrongs and change. I believe that in someone’s life there is room for change. Change doesn’t happen overnight but it happens. It is just a really slow process that requires a lot of patience and support and love! Never give up :)

Right now i am in such a difficult situation and i don’t even know what to do or say. It’s just one thing after the next with people in my life. Sometimes I wish people were more cautious like me. I love to examine and think through a situation before I make a big move or decision. Everyone always says “it’s good to be a risk taker and fearless” but do we often ask ourselves what is our limits, how far can we go or is this the best risk I am taking. I think being a risk taker can be defined in so many ways but a wise person always takes calculated risks and always consults God or the people in their life before they do something drastic. I just hate the situation. What to do….?!?! le sigh

Patience why can’t people just have patience. Life isn’t going anywhere it will be here tomorrow and the day after once God spares your life to see another. Don’t rush to grow up or be something that you aren’t. Take life one day at a time and trust me your life will worth it..<3